Old Friends

First off I would like to thank Kody for putting the Christmas tree back together and doing such a good job, and to tell him that I love him!
Tonight I was kinda forced into thinking about a subject that always sends me into a funk, that being the assorted friends I have had through my life. I think about them, wondering how they are, and if they ever wonder about me.
Tonight in particular I received a message on Myspace from one of my old friends giving me a new phone number seeing how she just moved to Illinois last month. She said it seemed like I was trying to forget my past and my past friends, and if I were that would be fine. She told me to just let her know if that was the way I felt and she would pass it on to everyone else that I was friends with in high school.
Of course this made me feel like a pile of shit. But at the same time, not really. I am not the same person I was in high school, but I miss the people from my childhood. I sent her a message letting her know that she could call me anytime, and that while we would most likely never be friends like we were in school, I would always care for her. I hope she realizes that when I say that, I mean it. In fact I feel that way about everyone I have ever been friends with. I carry you all with me all the time, even if our friendship ended badly, or we just grew apart. I think about you all, and care for you all for helping to make me the person I am, scary as that may be.
This of course gets me on a roll about my current friendships, and I wonder if we will always be friends? I hope so. While there is nothing I can do about the friendships that have drifted away, I can work hard to keep the ones I have strong. So to Lexy, Tony, Diane, Nick, Mike, Mary, and my beloved Kim, I just want to tell you I love you and you mean so much to me!
There, how was that for sappy! I think this song is fairly on the mark.

Simple Minds - Don't You Forget About Me

Rage

I love my Christmas tree. I take a hell of a lot of pride in putting it up and decorating it, and love sitting around it all lit up in the evening.
I had a really rough day today, and when I got home, I discovered the cats had systematically destroyed the tree. It was pretty bad. I took one look at the tree, then at the cats, and walked right upstairs and closed myself in the bedroom until Kody got home. I am pretty sure if I had stayed down there with the cats I would have killed them.....slowly.
Kody began putting things back together the best he could. I came down and helped for a few minutes, but found myself getting really angry again so came back upstairs, which is where I am right now. I am pretty sure the tree will not look right again this year unless I take down all the lights and start from scratch.
Perhaps I am overreacting. I get so pissed off sometimes. I get so uncompromisingly angry, everything is blanketed in a sea of red rage. It is stupid really. They are kittens, what should I expect. That being said, I am pretty sure they have experienced their last day of freedom until after Christmas. Starting tomorrow they will most likely spend the day while I am at work locked up in the laundry room, and if they are real good, they will live through the next month.

Oh Celine, through the beauty of your voice and the magic of my favorite holiday song please grant me the courage to face another day, the wisdom to forgive those who abuse my trust, the strength to do battle with my inner demons, and the restraint to not throw my cats in the dryer and roast their hairy little asses! Just kidding, I love my babies, just not tonight.

Celine Dion - O Holy Night

The Mist

Kody and I went to see The Mist tonight. Being derived from one of my very favorite Stephen King short stories, this was a must see for me.
I was not disappointed. The movie pretty much followed the story line the way Mr. King told it years ago. The end however was different. In the story we were not told the outcome, but left to fill in the blanks as we would like. The movie filled in the blank for us, and if I may say so in one of the most disturbing ways one could think of. After doing a little research, the movie ending apparently had the blessing of Mr. King before it was shot, but it just does not seem like his style. Anyway, the end left me feeling upset and disturbed. So I guess Mr. Darabont did his job. I liked the movie, liked it a lot in fact, but I liked the ending Mr. King allowed me to come up with on my own much better.

So you know, just in case you were wondering, Kody and I are not fighting, and are just fine. What was written on my blog was done so because at that moment it is how I felt, and that makes it's presence here justified, even if slightly unreasonable. As always, your comments and opinions are welcome

I guess since Thanksgiving is over, it is officially time to start celebrating Christmas. A bit early if you ask me, but hey who am I to argue with everyone. While this may not have come directly from the 80's, I'm sure none of you will question it's placement here. It rocks my face off!! Let the countdown to Christmas begin!!!!


Twisted Sister - Oh Come All Ye Faithful

Hi my name is..

Yeah, I am back from my hiatus once again. lets not go into details, you have heard it all before.

In case you were unaware, Kody and I have kitties now. The grey and white one is Trip (Kody's), and the orange and white one is Frodo (mine). They are shits, but we love them none the less.

Kody has really been going to town on his journal. I had no idea he had been updating so much. I especially enjoy the part about him being "chastised" about the many different ways the world will end all at once, not to mention my apparent hatred of all music with any social or moral meaning to it. Yep, enjoyed that one a lot.

I really have nothing to say. I should have waited till there was more. I will write again soon with something a little nicer.

Happy Birthday Kim! I missed calling you. I am really sorry!


Cyndi Lauper - All Through The Night