Raewriter returns

For the most part, anyway. I am home again, I think now for good. There will of course be the semi-regular overnight visits to Eldon, but for the most part I think the extended stays are over.

It has been an interesting time to say the least. A whole lot of negative, but a few positive things mixed in to keep life livable. I really feel like I became closer to my stepbrother and stepsister, both of which will be back this summer. Best of all, I feel like I am getting to know my mom better. Not as my mom, but as the flesh and blood woman that she is. I feel very fortunate. She is an amazing woman, and despite her many fears and weaknesses, I hope one day I can have her courage.

I have been living in a bubble, and while it was a million miles from perfection, it was sheltered from everything that I did not want or could not deal with. Tony's death popped the bubble and forced me back into reality. Sometimes I miss the bubble, but I don't plan on returning to it.


Momma, this is for you......

Cyndi Lauper - Shine