Concerning Myspace

I have canceled my Myspace account. It sucked and I hated it. Just an FYI.

There is a good chance I get to go on a cruise for my birthday. January is much nicer when spent in the Caribbean. The possibility of going to Australia was also put out there, but I don't know about that one. At any rate, here's to getting up and going!!


Roam - The B 52's

The Cranberries

Not only are they tasty with turkey and good for your kidneys they made some pretty good music once upon a time. A rare find in the shitty 90's and worth a look.



Zombie



Dreams (personal favorite)



Linger



Just My Imagination



When You're Gone



This Is The Day (love this song)



Salvation



Free To Decide

Just Browsing Around

I was looking around tonight on every one's blogs for the first time in several weeks. Loved the story of Mike and the new kitty sharing a good shit! I found the grand debate over religion most interesting (I suppose I should keep my opinions of religion to myself.) I was happy to hear that the film Tony worked on took 1st place and was sorry that we did not make it up to share that with him.

I am leaving for Colorado either this coming Friday or Saturday, I have not decided for sure. At any rate I am ready. I have earned this fucking trip. I need this trip on so many levels right now.

Even though it is technically over (it is 12:47am right now) I want to wish Kody a happy birthday, and tell him I love him.

I need to start blogging again.



Cyndi Lauper - Hole In My Heart

The latest

Well, there is not that much going on I guess. In fact, I have no idea why the hell I am writing this.

I got all my flowers out this past weekend. I went a little over budget perhaps, but it looks good. I will take a few pictures and post them at some point.

Not to sound like I am throwing myself a pity party, but I have been thinking a lot about what it is exactly I am good at. What do people respect or admire about me? I can think of nothing. Really nothing. Other than the fact that I have a nasty temper. Wow, sometimes I feel like a real waste of space.

Ok so maybe that was a pity party, but what the hell I am allowed.

I am going to start painting the townhouse soon I think. I am ready for something different. I am also ready to go on vacation. I need to get the fuck out of here for a little while.


Talk Talk - It's My Life

I have been MOLESTED

Frodo Baggins has become quite fond of molesting me every time I lay down on the bed with my laptop. I got the camera up and snapped this photo. He is relentless!

I will update my blog again soon with a real post. Baggins will help I'm sure.

Raewriter returns

For the most part, anyway. I am home again, I think now for good. There will of course be the semi-regular overnight visits to Eldon, but for the most part I think the extended stays are over.

It has been an interesting time to say the least. A whole lot of negative, but a few positive things mixed in to keep life livable. I really feel like I became closer to my stepbrother and stepsister, both of which will be back this summer. Best of all, I feel like I am getting to know my mom better. Not as my mom, but as the flesh and blood woman that she is. I feel very fortunate. She is an amazing woman, and despite her many fears and weaknesses, I hope one day I can have her courage.

I have been living in a bubble, and while it was a million miles from perfection, it was sheltered from everything that I did not want or could not deal with. Tony's death popped the bubble and forced me back into reality. Sometimes I miss the bubble, but I don't plan on returning to it.


Momma, this is for you......

Cyndi Lauper - Shine

Tony

My stepdad passed away last night at home at 9:36pm, surrounded by his family. The way it stands right now, the visitation will be Thursday evening at Rekus Funeral Home in Eldon, and the funeral will be Friday morning at 11am. I am tired, and think I am going to sneek in a little nap.