I was looking around tonight on every one's blogs for the first time in several weeks. Loved the story of Mike and the new kitty sharing a good shit! I found the grand debate over religion most interesting (I suppose I should keep my opinions of religion to myself.) I was happy to hear that the film Tony worked on took 1st place and was sorry that we did not make it up to share that with him.
I am leaving for Colorado either this coming Friday or Saturday, I have not decided for sure. At any rate I am ready. I have earned this fucking trip. I need this trip on so many levels right now.
Even though it is technically over (it is 12:47am right now) I want to wish Kody a happy birthday, and tell him I love him.
I need to start blogging again.
Cyndi Lauper - Hole In My Heart
Friday, June 13, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
The latest
Well, there is not that much going on I guess. In fact, I have no idea why the hell I am writing this.
I got all my flowers out this past weekend. I went a little over budget perhaps, but it looks good. I will take a few pictures and post them at some point.
Not to sound like I am throwing myself a pity party, but I have been thinking a lot about what it is exactly I am good at. What do people respect or admire about me? I can think of nothing. Really nothing. Other than the fact that I have a nasty temper. Wow, sometimes I feel like a real waste of space.
Ok so maybe that was a pity party, but what the hell I am allowed.
I am going to start painting the townhouse soon I think. I am ready for something different. I am also ready to go on vacation. I need to get the fuck out of here for a little while.
Talk Talk - It's My Life
I got all my flowers out this past weekend. I went a little over budget perhaps, but it looks good. I will take a few pictures and post them at some point.
Not to sound like I am throwing myself a pity party, but I have been thinking a lot about what it is exactly I am good at. What do people respect or admire about me? I can think of nothing. Really nothing. Other than the fact that I have a nasty temper. Wow, sometimes I feel like a real waste of space.
Ok so maybe that was a pity party, but what the hell I am allowed.
I am going to start painting the townhouse soon I think. I am ready for something different. I am also ready to go on vacation. I need to get the fuck out of here for a little while.
Talk Talk - It's My Life
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
I have been MOLESTED
Frodo Baggins has become quite fond of molesting me every time I lay down on the bed with my laptop. I got the camera up and snapped this photo. He is relentless!
I will update my blog again soon with a real post. Baggins will help I'm sure.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Raewriter returns
For the most part, anyway. I am home again, I think now for good. There will of course be the semi-regular overnight visits to Eldon, but for the most part I think the extended stays are over.
It has been an interesting time to say the least. A whole lot of negative, but a few positive things mixed in to keep life livable. I really feel like I became closer to my stepbrother and stepsister, both of which will be back this summer. Best of all, I feel like I am getting to know my mom better. Not as my mom, but as the flesh and blood woman that she is. I feel very fortunate. She is an amazing woman, and despite her many fears and weaknesses, I hope one day I can have her courage.
I have been living in a bubble, and while it was a million miles from perfection, it was sheltered from everything that I did not want or could not deal with. Tony's death popped the bubble and forced me back into reality. Sometimes I miss the bubble, but I don't plan on returning to it.
Momma, this is for you......
Cyndi Lauper - Shine
It has been an interesting time to say the least. A whole lot of negative, but a few positive things mixed in to keep life livable. I really feel like I became closer to my stepbrother and stepsister, both of which will be back this summer. Best of all, I feel like I am getting to know my mom better. Not as my mom, but as the flesh and blood woman that she is. I feel very fortunate. She is an amazing woman, and despite her many fears and weaknesses, I hope one day I can have her courage.
I have been living in a bubble, and while it was a million miles from perfection, it was sheltered from everything that I did not want or could not deal with. Tony's death popped the bubble and forced me back into reality. Sometimes I miss the bubble, but I don't plan on returning to it.
Momma, this is for you......
Cyndi Lauper - Shine
Monday, January 28, 2008
Tony
My stepdad passed away last night at home at 9:36pm, surrounded by his family. The way it stands right now, the visitation will be Thursday evening at Rekus Funeral Home in Eldon, and the funeral will be Friday morning at 11am. I am tired, and think I am going to sneek in a little nap.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
It's things like this...
Simple little things that really get me. Mike delivered a loaf of his famously delicious chocolate chip banana bread to the house yesterday. That simple act of kindness meant more to me than anything anyone has done for me in a long time. Thank you Mike! I mean that with all my heart!
Tony should be going home tomorrow. The doctors have done everything they are going to do. They say he has a few weeks. We shall see what happens.
I am finding it really hard to care about shit right now. Christmas is 5 days away and I don't care. I have sent out no cards, bought no gifts, nothing. I did take out more life insurance so that when I die Kody will be taken care of. I guess I still care about some stuff.
I feel like I need to say something, but it won't come out. I'm not sure what it is.
Cyndi Lauper - Sally's Pigeons
Tony should be going home tomorrow. The doctors have done everything they are going to do. They say he has a few weeks. We shall see what happens.
I am finding it really hard to care about shit right now. Christmas is 5 days away and I don't care. I have sent out no cards, bought no gifts, nothing. I did take out more life insurance so that when I die Kody will be taken care of. I guess I still care about some stuff.
I feel like I need to say something, but it won't come out. I'm not sure what it is.
Cyndi Lauper - Sally's Pigeons
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Storm Chasers
You have to be completely out of your mind to do it, but the rewards would be so worth it! I have always been fascinated with the fury of mother nature, tornadoes in particular. This video does not show as much as a lot of the other ones I have watched, but I find it incredibly intense nonetheless. It is one of the few videos capturing the mile wide E-F5 tornado that hit Greensburg, Kansas on May 4th, 2007. I had the honor of visiting Greensburg years ago while driving through to Dodge City.
I love this video. What kind of an idiot stands in his TRAILER and films a tornado through the window as it goes by. It should be noted this man was also struck by lightning and knocked out when one of his windows blew in. I guess it takes stupid people to get really great footage like this.
Finally right here at home, this is the surveillance camera footage from outside the high school in Caruthersville, Missouri. The footage shows the E-F3 tornado that hit on April 2, 2006.
Unfortunately, all three of these particular storms resulted in a loss of life. The dark side of my passion.
I love this video. What kind of an idiot stands in his TRAILER and films a tornado through the window as it goes by. It should be noted this man was also struck by lightning and knocked out when one of his windows blew in. I guess it takes stupid people to get really great footage like this.
Finally right here at home, this is the surveillance camera footage from outside the high school in Caruthersville, Missouri. The footage shows the E-F3 tornado that hit on April 2, 2006.
Unfortunately, all three of these particular storms resulted in a loss of life. The dark side of my passion.
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