A randon spray of this and that.

I know this is just so terribly 80's you could all shit, but this is for Kim. The words of the song do a pretty good job of telling her what I couldn't the morning I left without getting choked up.

I am proud of myself! I saved the tears for the car!

Speaking of my trip, I guess I should tell you all how it went.
I had a great time! The trip out there was typical. It took a lot longer than normal to get there, which kinda sucked. The time that I was there however was fantastic. Kim and Nick always do such a wonderful job of making me feel welcome in their home. I love and miss you guys so much, and can't wait to see you again! The week went by much to fast for me. Sara's wedding was beautiful, and everything went off (for the most part) without a hitch. The trip home was not the greatest. I drove with a hangover, which is never good. The car charger for my cell phone took a shit, and seeing how I was relying solely on it I was without a cell phone for the trip home, which really pissed me off. I cried off and on for like the first 5 hours of the trip, which did nothing for said hangover. I left around 10:30am Saturday morning, and arrived home at 5:00am Sunday morning. That is not good time by any stretch of the imagination.

An acquaintance of mine put in their notice at their job a few days ago. Curious as to what their plans were, I asked. They plan not only to live off welfare, but intend to sell drugs for extra money. All I could do was walk away. Words fail me.

Here's something I find particularly funny.


Micheala, I am sorry I did not call you on your birthday! I did not forget sweetie, just have way to much shit on my mind right now. I know that is not an excuse, so feel free to call me a huge butthead. I love you, and can't wait to take a ride with you.

I am smoking again for anyone who did not know. It started innocently enough, vowing to only smoke when I drank. Yeah that worked like a charm. So now I face the task of quitting once again. I am quite excited.

I guess I don't have anything else to talk about. Talk at ya later!

A few things before I hit the road....

I am leaving in the morning. I am still not all the way packed, which sucks really bad because I wanted to get everything packed and in the car tonight so in the morning it would be a quick shower and off we go. Maybe it will still work out that way.

I went to my dad's house today, and unfortunately had to deal with my stepmothers family. They are super religious, and felt the need to look down at me as they always do because 1 I don't go to church and 2 I am gay. They look at me like a bug, and have told me that I am a godless sinner for being a homosexual. If getting into heaven meant swallowing that bullshit then I would just as soon burn in hell. So fuck them and every other member of the Assembly of God faith for judging me. Hell will be so cozy with you there to keep me company.

Well, I will talk to you all in 2 weeks!!!!

Ryan

Getting Ready

So I am getting ready for my upcoming trip to Colorado. I am leaving this coming Friday the 6th. I am excited for several reasons. First, I get to see Kim and Nick. I have missed them so! Then of course, I am excited to just get the flying fuck out of Missouri for a few minutes. I am also excited about the drive out there. I love the chance to be alone and think and relax for 16 hours. Kansas in particular is a great place to just enjoy the open road and think, or enjoy an audio book. I love simple things like that.
Here's to going on vacation.....cheers!

For Micheala

Micheala sweetie this is for you, and for remembering a time before things got so bad and life got so goddamn hard. Smile!



I love you with all my heart!
RyRy

And Now She's Gone

This journal entry will no doubt get me laughed at. That's ok. I used to watch wrestling when I was a little kid. It was fun to watch, despite being horribly fake. One person in particular was my favorite. Her name was Sensational Sherri. I loved watching her! I watched every week, and had coutless tapes with matches that she appeared in. She became the only reason I watched. She was so over the top, you just could not help love her! I even got the chance to meet her once at a wrestling event back in 1990. She was so sweet to me. After she left wrestling, I stopped watching, and have not watched it for many years.

Saturday, I was browsing the internet and came across a news headline saying Sensational Sherri Martel dies at age 49. It hit me really hard for some reason, and I have not been able to shake the feeling all weekend. I cried. I am sad, sad over a person that I have not thought about in a long time. It is stupid really, but in some way I feel like a part of my childhood died with her.

So, I found this on youtube. There are a lot of them floating around, but I liked the song with this one the best. It is cheesy I know, but hey, I am not clever enough to make my own.



You can go ahead and laugh at me now, but please spare me some hurt feelings and do it behind my back.

Summer Kick Off

Hmm, so this weekend is pretty much the official kick off of Summer. In usual fashion, it has rained all weekend. Get out there and enjoy boys and girls.

Not much has been going on right now. I am trying to patch things up as best I can, but there is still a lot of work to be done. I do what I can when I can. I am hoping it is enough.

I am really tired tonight. I had a really long day at work, which followed a really long night last night. I need some sleep tonight.

That's all. This was not much of a post, but I needed to write something.

Ryan

Cyndi Lauper

I have always worshiped and adored her! From time to time however, hers is about the only music I listen to. Now is one of those times. I remember sitting in my cousin Tina's room as a little kid listening to her tapes in the mid to late 80's. Cyndi Lauper was one of her very favorites. She Bop, Money Changes Everything, Change of Heart, and Time After Time are embedded in some of the earlier memories of my childhood. I do love the music she is making now, and I do not mean to discriminate against it here with a lack of representation, but tonight it is about nostalgia! Take part in a stroll down memory lane with me will you?













Ahh, that was fun! She will be in concert next month in Chicago for her True Colors Tour along with a lot of other cool people. I would love the chance to go see her in concert! Who knows, I may grab a couple of those tickets. Not only would it be an AMAZING show, but it is also for a great cause! Check out the website at http://www.truecolorstour.com/