Ch Ch Ch Changes

So, thankfully Spring has arrived, even though it snowed yesterday a little. Miserable!

I am working towards quitting smoking. It has been over a week since I last had a cigarette. The price increase had a lot to do with the timing, but I think I was getting close to quitting anyway. The dumbass who said the first 3 days were the worst is a fucking liar. My cravings actually seem to be getting worse! I am determined however to make this my last attempt to break the habit.

My opinion on the price hike? It was to be expected. I will say however that since they feel the need to punish smokers, they should also step up and add extra taxes to fast food resturants and EVERYTHING else that could enable a person to become really fat. It's only fair.

My friend Kim is getting close to having her baby. She and Nick have stayed strong in the face of some pretty big challenges with this pregnancy. I admire them for that. That strength must have passed on to their unborn son, because he has turned out to quite the fighter! Keep them in your prayers the next couple of weeks.

As I'm sure most of you already know, Kody has given birth to a dog. I have some mixed emotions about our dear Ti. I do love the little shit, and think that our bond will grow with time. I do still tend to side with the cats, and have offered Kody full rights of the dog in return for full rights over Tripper(seeing how he likes me better anyway, lol.) Kody declined this offer.

I am determined to go to a concert this summer! Cyndi Lauper's tour dates have not been set as of yet, so I will wait for that. Pat Benatar will be in Chicago on August 17th, so that is a possibility. I will research some more.

Seems this recession has been pretty hard on my childhood home. It may be a shithole, but there are a lot of memories there, and it does not deserve this. Here's to the end of what has been.

Happy Tree Friends

My kinda cartoon

January blues

Yeah, I kinda have them a little. It is coming up on the one year anniversary of Tony dying. I would be a liar if I said this was not on my mind. It is also never pleasant to grow another year older and still not be where you want to be. Blah, I don't want to grow up! It does not help that it was almost 70 fucking degrees yesterday, and tonight it snowed. Please feel free to insert your own favorite Missouri weather cliche here. I also have a stomach ache tonight. McDonalds makes my tummy sad.

I think I am going to take advantage of a few open houses tomorrow while Kody is at his photo shoot. Then I think we are going to see a movie with Mike and Mary which should be fun. Sunday I am going to mom's and filing my taxes. Tuesday I am taking her to St. Louis to the airport. I find it violently unfair that she gets to leave while I sit here in this damned ice box!

Please take a moment to check out my new random dislike. You may be slightly disgusted. If you enjoy it, let me know so we can stop being friends.

New era?

I guess only time will tell what will come of Obama's presidency. I have hope. And while I did not hate him, it sure was nice to watch the country shave her Bush off today. I think he is a good man, just a bad president. So lets keep our fingers crossed and look forward to better times ahead.

Made it

I hope you all traversed the holiday spectacle without experiencing to much grief. If I don't see you before then, I would like to wish you all a happy new year. 2009 as to be better, right?


Frida - I Know There's Something Going On

Turkey Day

I hate like hell that I have to work long hours on Thursday and Friday. I am looking forward to Saturday however. Since it received the most votes, I will be bringing green bean casserole to our function. I will also be bringing the double chocolate cake because that is the way I roll. Love you guys and can't wait to see you!

Impulse Buy

Well, not really. I have wanted it for a while now ever since playing with Kim and Nick in Colorado. Still, buying Rock Band Special Edition for the Wii was an impulse buy. Best Buy had it on sale tonight. Could I afford it? Not really. Did that stop me? Hell no! It is only money, and I am calling it my Christmas present to myself. I am uber excited to play, and hopefully in the process get a little better at it.
I hope someone will play with me sometime because it is a shitload of fun to play with a whole band! So watch out Nick, when I come out in May I am gonna rock your face off! Ha ha, probably not.(it should be noted here that Nick is pretty damn good at Rock Band)

Yeah, we did it. Not that the state of Missouri helped. Ignorant backwoods right wing hillbillies (this statement includes many members of my family before you go getting all upset). Ha, Bellweather State my ass.

Anywho, I am looking forward to what President elect Obama has in store for this country. Great things I hope. We shall see. Regardless, this one is in honor of living through eight years of Bush, and for all those extreme uberChristian Nazis who lost their fearless leader.

Friday February 13th, 2009

Well, they finally did it. Only Freddy Kruger remains untarnished from the original holy quartet of psycho killers. I'm hoping since this one was put together by the team who did the Chainsaw remake, it will not be a complete stinker.
Tony, you really need to hurry and become the great film maker and put out new horror movies. I grow weary of seeing my childhood idols raped.

Stupidity...

...is something like this.

The 31 Days of Halloween

It's here again, my favorite time of year! Kody is working on a new header for me, since I have zero skill in that department. I will be decorating the front of the house over the next couple of days. I am most excited!!

Due to either a successful fraud attempt or an unfortunate bank error, my checking account was drained a few days ago. It sucked. Jefferson Bank replaced the money within 24 hours so a true crisis was avoided, but it scared the shit out of me none the less.

Twice recently I have been the unfortunate victim of having to witness people popping zits in their cars. The first was at Sonic while I waited on my dinner grossly enough, the second a girl in front of me who squeezed on that mother at the end of her nose through the better first half of a green light despite several blows of my horn. I hate people.

I am not big in discussing my political beliefs, especially on a forum such as this. I am going to say however that after the vice presidential debate last night I am reminded why I am an Independent voter.

It should also be noted my feelings towards anyone who believes they can "pray the gay" out of me. A person such as that gets no respect from me, because I find such comments and beliefs to be intolerable and completely disrespectful. You get what you give.

Please make note of my survey over on the right. It will change from time to time, so please participate!

In honor of October, let's start the first entry of the month off with something really scary. Ladies and gentlemen, I give you.....

Dead or Alive - You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)

EEEKKK, scary!!

Oh Happy Day!!

I found out last night that my best friends Kim and Nick are pregnant with thier second child! I am so excited for the both of them! They have been wanting this for so long and it looks like all that hard work (wink, wink) has paid off. So congrats to you both, and I love you!


Sweet Child O' Mine - Guns N' Roses

Check back soon for a new layout and hopefully more posting.

Concerning Myspace

I have canceled my Myspace account. It sucked and I hated it. Just an FYI.

There is a good chance I get to go on a cruise for my birthday. January is much nicer when spent in the Caribbean. The possibility of going to Australia was also put out there, but I don't know about that one. At any rate, here's to getting up and going!!


Roam - The B 52's

The Cranberries

Not only are they tasty with turkey and good for your kidneys they made some pretty good music once upon a time. A rare find in the shitty 90's and worth a look.



Zombie



Dreams (personal favorite)



Linger



Just My Imagination



When You're Gone



This Is The Day (love this song)



Salvation



Free To Decide

Just Browsing Around

I was looking around tonight on every one's blogs for the first time in several weeks. Loved the story of Mike and the new kitty sharing a good shit! I found the grand debate over religion most interesting (I suppose I should keep my opinions of religion to myself.) I was happy to hear that the film Tony worked on took 1st place and was sorry that we did not make it up to share that with him.

I am leaving for Colorado either this coming Friday or Saturday, I have not decided for sure. At any rate I am ready. I have earned this fucking trip. I need this trip on so many levels right now.

Even though it is technically over (it is 12:47am right now) I want to wish Kody a happy birthday, and tell him I love him.

I need to start blogging again.



Cyndi Lauper - Hole In My Heart

The latest

Well, there is not that much going on I guess. In fact, I have no idea why the hell I am writing this.

I got all my flowers out this past weekend. I went a little over budget perhaps, but it looks good. I will take a few pictures and post them at some point.

Not to sound like I am throwing myself a pity party, but I have been thinking a lot about what it is exactly I am good at. What do people respect or admire about me? I can think of nothing. Really nothing. Other than the fact that I have a nasty temper. Wow, sometimes I feel like a real waste of space.

Ok so maybe that was a pity party, but what the hell I am allowed.

I am going to start painting the townhouse soon I think. I am ready for something different. I am also ready to go on vacation. I need to get the fuck out of here for a little while.


Talk Talk - It's My Life

I have been MOLESTED

Frodo Baggins has become quite fond of molesting me every time I lay down on the bed with my laptop. I got the camera up and snapped this photo. He is relentless!

I will update my blog again soon with a real post. Baggins will help I'm sure.

Raewriter returns

For the most part, anyway. I am home again, I think now for good. There will of course be the semi-regular overnight visits to Eldon, but for the most part I think the extended stays are over.

It has been an interesting time to say the least. A whole lot of negative, but a few positive things mixed in to keep life livable. I really feel like I became closer to my stepbrother and stepsister, both of which will be back this summer. Best of all, I feel like I am getting to know my mom better. Not as my mom, but as the flesh and blood woman that she is. I feel very fortunate. She is an amazing woman, and despite her many fears and weaknesses, I hope one day I can have her courage.

I have been living in a bubble, and while it was a million miles from perfection, it was sheltered from everything that I did not want or could not deal with. Tony's death popped the bubble and forced me back into reality. Sometimes I miss the bubble, but I don't plan on returning to it.


Momma, this is for you......

Cyndi Lauper - Shine

Tony

My stepdad passed away last night at home at 9:36pm, surrounded by his family. The way it stands right now, the visitation will be Thursday evening at Rekus Funeral Home in Eldon, and the funeral will be Friday morning at 11am. I am tired, and think I am going to sneek in a little nap.

It's things like this...

Simple little things that really get me. Mike delivered a loaf of his famously delicious chocolate chip banana bread to the house yesterday. That simple act of kindness meant more to me than anything anyone has done for me in a long time. Thank you Mike! I mean that with all my heart!

Tony should be going home tomorrow. The doctors have done everything they are going to do. They say he has a few weeks. We shall see what happens.

I am finding it really hard to care about shit right now. Christmas is 5 days away and I don't care. I have sent out no cards, bought no gifts, nothing. I did take out more life insurance so that when I die Kody will be taken care of. I guess I still care about some stuff.

I feel like I need to say something, but it won't come out. I'm not sure what it is.

Cyndi Lauper - Sally's Pigeons